The Savage Nocturn

2009.

What can I say about you?

You started out great and are spiraling down faster than any other year by far.

Started out with a kiss. From someone I like.


The Bad
I got my teeth pulled and became a blowfish
I got kicked out of college
I got an infection in my mouth and became a blowfish again
He started seeing someone. Someone I know and feel bad about wanting their relationship to end.
I got in a car wreck

The Good
I'm going to be a maid of honor
I've gained even more confidence about myself
Made closer friends with people
When I got my infection the dentist apprentice hit on me. He was around 30.
I'm narrowing down on what I want to do
When I got in my wreck the cop hit on me. He was in his late 20's.


The Bad: 5
The Good: 6

So far good's winning but the way things are looking it won't last long.

I found a quote that puts down in words what I live by:

"You can either hold yourself up to the unrealistic standards of others, or ignore them and concentrate on being happy with yourself as you are."

Spring Break and My Birthday are coming up.

Will they make the good pull ahead or tie it up?

I honestly don't know, and I'm not sure I want to find out but I'm going to have to.

I'm sick of the rain and the cold. I want things to be bright again so the flowers will bloom and I can smell my favorite flower. They never last long but they're my favorite thing about spring.

Strong fictional characters that I look up to: (Women characters)
Jordan Sullivan
Larxene

Yes that's right I look up to the bitches. Why?

They know what they want, they aren't afraid to go after what they want.

They are strong and aren't like so many of the women that are shown on television these days that need to be rescued or the one's who make matters worse.

They don't care what you think because what you think is only a perception and they know the facts about themselves and they don't need you to know it.

Self-confidence, strength, and sexy.

I think most people are looking for these things but really it's just the manner of how you see yourself.

You'd just better hope that when you look in the mirror and see the real you staring back you like what you see.

I do. I notice my flaws but I actually like some of them. Like how my eyebrows are too thick and my nose is a little too long for my face. I don't mind them and I like how I've become personality wise as well.

Perfection is over-rated. That's what I've learned from reading the Twilight books. They make my insides feel like they are made of honey and cotton candy. In a bad way.

That's one of the things I'm looking for in a partner. Flaws that I can love, because seeing through the flaws and to the person they are underneath is what I think love is about.

I guess that doesn't just apply to a lover but also to friends.

I should really do my homework. I don't know why I'm rambling on and on. I just wanted to bitch about how crappy my year was going.

Ps. Larxene reminds me of a Praying mantis. The percentage is very high of the female mantis decapitating and ingesting the males head during intercourse. :D